Disregard all of what I've said and known, for I did not know true love, until I met him. In previous years I've been a victim of what only can be called 'infatuation', but there's something about this time, that makes me
Just as an old flame was fizzling out, a hopeful little ember ignited my hopes once more. From out of nowhere he seemed to arrive, when my skies were clouding over and turning grey, a ray of sunshine shone through. It was something so unexpected and so exciting, it's something you can only imagine, and something that dreams are made of.
I'd always told myself that I wouldn't allow myself to fall so hard for someone, and I always told myself that I wouldn't even contemplate pursuing someone that works in the same company as I do - but this time it's different. I'd spotted someone around work, someone with an aura of mystery, someone I instantly felt magnetised towards. Who was he? What was his name? I didn't have a clue, all I knew, is that I had to find out, somehow. In the coming weeks there were a few socials and coincidentally, he was invited to get ready at a mutual friends house, and then we all headed out on the town together. I could feel the chemistry straight away, the question was, did he feel the same way? I went into school-girl mode and suddenly all logic closed down as we danced on the dancefloor, when normally I'd feel quite confident, all I wanted to do was kiss him, but I never conjured up enough courage. As a last ditch attempt, when I was waiting for a taxi, I asked him for his number so that I could find out when he was home safe (smooth, right?!).
We started talking more and more after this, we became connected via social networking sites and we started texting, and getting to know one another. With every message exchanged, I could feel myself pining for him, something that was so new, and so unusual for me, yes I'd had crushes before, but nothing quite as earth-shattering as this. As time went by, work put on a 'It's a Knockout' family fun day in the summer, fun and games, banter and food. The team I represented won the competition by one point, and his team came second - instant playful bragging rights. At the end of the day, after having some laughs and getting to know eachother even further, we decided we'd rally the troops and go out for the evening with some friends for some drinks, so he invited me over for drinks. Wow, was this really happening? Was everything falling into place?
Later that night once I'd gotten all of the bubbles and grass out of my hair from running around in fields in competition, and after a few panics and a few outfit choices later, I arrived at his house with a couple of bottles of wine. We got to talking again, and everything flowed so perfectly, I felt like I was on cloud nine. As the conversation continued to flow, we weren't even aware of the time slipping away, and we just kept having so much fun together, lots of laughs and a few flirts. When the time felt right, we were playing and I removed a flag from over his head and leant in and kissed him - and he kissed back. The night was pure perfection, words cannot even describe how incredible it was, my heart was racing, my mind in knots, and my stomach full of fluttering butterflies, I think I've found the one.
I'll keep you posted on this one...
Until next time xoxoxo
(Aug 2012)
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An update:
The supposed 'one'? well, now I can happily say that he is my boyfriend, and has been since the 5th October 2012. We have shared some amazing times together, with trips to London, Bristol, Swindon, Birmingham, Nottingham, Lichfield and Loughborough, Reading etc, and a lovely holiday to sunny Fuerteventura. I cannot imagine my life without him, he really is my kindred spirit, my star in the night sky, and my knight in shining armour.
The past 3 months have been the best I have experienced in a very long time, not only have I found a boyfriend, but a best friend, a soul-mate and my true love. He makes the world a truly beautiful place, and not only do I feel happier with him around, but my life is starting to fall into place, he makes me forget all my troubles, and give me hope once more. To know that I have someone so jaw-droppingly incredible, spurs me on, gives me something in life to fight for. He is my inspiration, motivation and I can think of nobody better to spend the rest of my life with - and it's only early days!
We make sure we make the time we spend together special, from shopping in different cities, to ice skating, bowling, clubbing, dining and even sitting in complete silence, and feeling completely comfortable with one another. He doesn't need to even try, he is effortlessly the most important aspect of my life, and for the first time, I can see myself planning my life not around my circumstances, but with someone - and nothing makes me more ecstatic than that.
I don't know if he'll ever get to read this, but with baited breath, I sit back and wonder whether he'd find it hopelessly romantic, or just cringe-worthy, but nevertheless, I care about him more than anything, and more than I could ever even comprehend even a few months ago.
Peter Seng Ow-Yong - I love you baby.
Until next time;
xoxo
(Jan 2013)
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